Learning Diary of a Woman!

What is better way to express the awe of being a woman than to write the experience of being one. Today I want to tell a truth. I think I did not like being a girl. Truth be told, I am not sure I still do. 

I don't feel like woman, except for the fact that yes, I am one and to prove the same I have two children but above and beyond, there is nothing is my demeanour that would quality 'lady like' or so I have been told. 

I am super passionate about the stuff I do and as a result I have been 'told' that I am emotional. My face expressed everything and as a result I never got away with emotional outbursts. 

I am bad in the looks departments, not because of how I look per se, but because, I don't care enough. Is this to say that had I been a  guy I would have gotten away with it. I can hope so, not sure though. 

Decision Making- I am supposed to take decisions but never ever ever be adamant about it and I have to take everyone's 'feelings' into cognizance. My sister who is single keeps asking me, how do you do it? My answer to her is we all do irrespective of gender. However with women the thought process is different, they think about others first and then try and work for a win win solution. With men, with it is a problem and solution approach. Win- win requires too much work

Is this a personality issue or a gender issue. Partly both because quiet a lot was expected in keeping with gender expectation. To say that opposite gender do not have their set of problems would be an understatement, but I suppose grass is always greener on the other side. Back to the writing. Today as I wish every one a Happy Woman's day, I ask myself, why especially since I am super complaining. 

Pandemic did a lot of things for us, for me, and one of things was it gave me perspective. I connected with a strong group of women, who made me feel appreciated and helped me believe in me in the most surprising way possible. That was just the beginning. To empower woman as a catalyst and to get into self empowerment are two different things. 

When women work together they form force which is impenetrable giving each other the much required support and love that they keep longing for. 

Today as a woman, I feel stronger not because a sudden epiphany, but because I have learnt that being woman is a strength that makes me stronger and knowing that I am not alone. I have  with me my sisters who will raise me, encourarage me, and won't leave me down. 

I also know that when one woman is unable to support she will send me ten different hands to pick me up but rest assured, women will not leave me alone. We will come up and grow together.